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 Anyone can hear me? Mom? Anyone? Help me, please! Here inside it is an earthquake happening, I’m very scared! At first I only felt like something pressing me once every ten minutes, but now it is faster. 

In the outside there’s a lot of people screaming. I think I had identified my grandparents calling for a doctor, and mom is frightened, like having spasms and crying due to the pain. Doctor made her lay down like when she sleeps, and at that moment I realized myself that I’ve lost the water I was living in. I have to go away and search this water, I can’t live without it!!

Mom is screaming very loud. The pressure on me is very high, I can’t stand here no more time, I have to go, but, where? 

Instinctively, I know what to do. It’s strange, because it’s like by nature I know what I have to do: taking advantage of mom’s contractions, I break through, hoping that I can quickly find again my water, my amniotic liquid. Instead of this, I saw literally the light at the end of the tunnel, trying not to pay attention to my mother’s shouts: I have to concentrate to pass between this narrow space. Surprisingly, all happened faster than I thought it was going to be. 

Everything was very confusing, and while I was trying to ignore what nurses was telling my mom, I finally put up my head at the outside world. The rest was easy: without any complication, I suddenly get outside. 

I don’t know why, but I started to cry. Actually, I can’t stop crying! All my little body is shaking, and everyone around me looks alleviated. Nurses didn’t spend too much time to accommodating me on my mommy’s arms. Then, I dared to slowly open my slanted little eyes. Now, I’m seeing a big smile and two big eyes crying alone with me, but not because she was sad: she was very happy, she was excited! On that moment, when I saw my mother’s smile, I stopped crying and changed my facial expression to a shy smile. I couldn’t talk, but my face was saying: hello, mom, I’m finally here, with you.

A frilly jersey prepared for me

 Wow! You maybe won’t believe me, but literally I’ve turn around myself on mommy’s body! Now I’m facedown, and something tells me that is an indicator that I’m going to go outside in few time. 

Lately, there are happening a lot of things: mom says that, as she watched on her ecuhocraphy, I’m chubby, and that makes me adorable for her. If she says that, I will believe her! Listen at what happened today: I had already told you about the existence of my mom’s mom, but, she also has a father! It’s pity sad because I don’t have one, but I’m grateful by what mom’s father said: “He won’t be alone while I’m here, in this world. I’m going to make him forget that he doesn’t has a daddy.” Strangely, those words doesn’t made mommy very happy, because she answered: “Dad! He can hear you! Don’t say those things on front of your grandchild!” 

And then he answered back: “But I didn’t said it with bad intentions! I mean that this boy, Isaac, is going to have the best grandfather of this world!”

Sincerely, I’m confused: there are words that I don’t understand very well. I think I will when I go outside, or at least, I hope so!Lately, mommy was alone and started talking to me. “And you, little boy, how are you going to be? I’m very excited. Your dad was very active, so I’m sure you’re going to be a restless baby. I just plead you to let me sleep a little bit at nights! I’ve got a friend, Selena, that has a three years little girl. We think that surely you’ll be very good friends! She’s a little bit tomboy, but, sssshh, don’t tell Selena this because it will make her angry because she doesn’t want to recognize that her girl is hoyden. Although, she’s lovely and you will match very well as friends. By other way, in my family we have all been from generation by generation bookworms, so I’m sure that you will practically born with a tale on your hands!

Oh, Isaac, I didn’t told you… my mom, your grandmother, has knitted a frilly jersey for you…It’s truly ugly, but she was very excited with the idea of seeing you with it put it on. So, sorry beforehand, you will hate me when I show your baby photo’s album to your first girlfriend and this frilly jersey on you will make her laugh. 

I will go to school!

 I’ve been feeling several days ago how my skeleton is harding itself. It must be a good sign, but I don’t stop thinking that this maybe can make mom to feel uncomfortable. The outside part of my body appears to be not longer wrinkled, but it also now is smoother. 

Today I discovered something new: I don’t have just a mother, I’m supposed to have a father too. I’m not very sure what that means, but according to what I’ve heard my mom needed my father’s help to have me inside her. Remember me to question mommy how does that work because I don’t understand what a father has to do with all this. By the way, I think I’m not going to meet the man that I should call “dad”. My mom has explained to me that he’s a coward and didn’t want to know anything about me when she told him about my existence. That makes me feel sad, but she doesn’t look like she’s worried about it as I do. She is so happy for having me that she doesn’t mind not having my dad near her. 

I hope that someday I can meet him, because if I don’t, I could not live with this uncertainty in my life. 

Talking about other things, my mom and I have gone today to talk with another woman that is mommy’s friend. She’s working on a place called kindergarten, and she looks like she knows a lot about children. My mother hopes that I can go to that school, because she loves the way they teach, especially how her friends do. Mommy has learned today more ways to teach me more things, apart of flashcards. She is preparing a lot of games to play with me, so I can learn something called position prepositions: “Isaac, listen: when you grow up a little, you will place yourself in the room and I will ask you if you’re under the desk, on the chair, near to the door, etc. And maybe we could climb a level up and make you say the whole sentence, then you practice grammar too! Do you understand?”

Honestly, no, mom, I don’t understand you, but you will keep talking like if I did, so continue doing it because I love that you’re making plans to do with me on a near future! 

She’s going to play with me sticking on my forehead a piece of paper with something written and she will make mime until I figure out what word do I have on my face. She thinks this is a very funny and ludic way to teach me some words.  

Mom has taken this ideas from her friend, and she won’t wait to kindergarten to play with me this games!

Mom starts teaching me about outside world

 Hello! I’ve got fresh news for you! I heard the doctor saying that now my size is approximately  25 cm and my weigh is around 300 gr. My mom thinks that I’m going to be a strong and tall child, and I believe her. 

By experimenting with myself I’ve noticed that I can move my little legs and my hands –I don’t know yet what are those “large shapes” that I told you because I’ve been hearing very concentrated every word the doctor said–. I’m having fun here inside! I can suck my little fingers, and move legs and arms to avoid mom forgetting  that I’m here. And, don’t miss it! Now I can make somersault! My record is about a triple somersault, I’m going to practice to impress my mom with a lot of somersaults when I get outside. She will be very proud of me, I’m sure. 

I think I have been here for five months, or, at least, that’s what the doctor said. I don’t know what kind of measure are those “months”, but this is being eternal for me! 

Mom has been talking to me today, listen what she said: “my little, I’m very excited because today I have felt your heart beats, this is very emotive for me. I have also continued searching names for you, and I have found the definite one: Isaac. Do you know what it means? It is “God’s laugh”, isn’t it beautiful?

I am so nervous and excited that I am already searching for games and activities to do with you! Now I know that I’m going to teach you simple vocabulary with flashcards, teacher’s blogs show that this method is very effective with kids! It’s a pity that you can’t see the crafts I’ve been preparing for carrying out this game. Well, it doesn’t matter, listen! When you get out of where you are you can see the flashcards, but now you have to imagine what this words mean: yellow, green, red, blue, pink, black, white, purple… this are color names, and now I will teach you some animals: rabbit, dog, cat, horse, crocodile (I hope you never stumble upon one of this, sincerely!), and there are more! I will teach you all by going together to the zoo, I promise you.

 

Racking my brain

 I’ve noticed that something is on my head that tickles me. It’s very curious, how useful can this strange fuzz have on my incipient life? Oh, I have discovered another thing. I was bored of sleeping and relaxing myself, so I started to play with my new body and, surprise! I can move by myself! Little by little, the place where I am is being smaller, so I feel more cramped. This is why I used my tiny legs to call mommy’s attention to tell her: “Mom, here inside is so small for me, could you take me out, please?”

But she didn’t answer like I would have liked. By the way, she said: “Oh my God, my little boy, you are very active! Maybe you will be a great football player!”. After that, she laughed and run to tell her mom that I was moving inside her.

When I heard that, I stop moving: what? I didn’t understood any word mommy’s said. Football? Player? What? I’m very confused: at first, I was a baby, then I was a boy, and now I’m a whatever football player means? Mom, please, clear up yourself about what I am! I'm racking my brain trying to find out some logic on what is happening here.